Saturday, March 31, 2012

Reading The Shack has been a life altering experience. Nope. I'm not exaggerating. This "fictional" tale took me to my very own Shack and I've come through the experience having a new perspective on many things with which I've been dealing. Who knew it would take reading a book to get me to this place of understanding and self love!!

So, how did I come to this place? Believe it or not, my doctor recommended that I read this. Yep. My medical doctor. I went into his office needing help with my digestive issues. I was thinking he would send me for another test but to my surprise, he told me I needed to love myself. He wasn't talking new age mumbo jumbo but a true love, for myself! He believes the my gut issues are connected to my emotions. He explained the physiological connection but also explained how there is a spiritual connection as well. He began telling me I was perfect and I was exactly where I needed to be in my life, even if that place was chaotic and full of health struggles. I couldn't fully accept his words...

This acceptance came from reading The Shack. I wasn't expecting this acceptance, this knowledge but I'm certainly grateful for it!! I can finally wrap my mind around the concept of loving myself. I'm a piece of God, His Creation, the pinnacle of Creation actually. To loathe who I am or to critique myself into oblivion would be acting as Judge. I'm not the Judge...God doesn't even "judge" me in the sense that we humans have come to understand the verb to judge!!! God loves this beautiful, messy and chaotic soul and, now, so do I!!! I can see others now...what a gift!!

I highly recommend everyone to read this book...yes, even if you're not religious or spiritual or even "Christian." Heck, Jesus the Christ wasn't Christian either;) Essentially our lives are meant for relationship, Love! Be warned, this book is going to take you through Mack's (the fictional character of this fictional story) life in a real way and you may just find yourself slap dab in the middle of your own shack.


Monday, March 12, 2012

Taking The Step...

Much time has passed since my last blog. I have been struggling with a health issue which has caused me to reevaluate my life, my purpose, my passions. What I discovered is that I haven't been spending much time on evaluating much of anything about my own life. I have always gone through life molding to the circumstances and the people around me. I hadn't even realized I'd been doing this to be quite honest.

Of course, I have always known I've been a "people pleaser." What I didn't realize is that I haven't asserted much of my own personal power in my own life but have simply molded to the power others have emitted. I find this quite sad almost pathetic. I'm a 30 something woman and I believe it's time to truly embrace living on purpose!!

I now wonder if there's a connection between my health issues and the fact that I've been living my life on cruise control. Actually, I don't wonder, I do think there's a strong connection!

I'm at home today because of my health issues and I realize I must begin taking those steps, no matter how small the step, toward the life I was meant to live. God created me with a purpose and I know that purpose isn't one of neutrality.

A great deal of time has been spent in this place of limbo, an Earthly purgatory if you will, and I'm ready to follow God's lead because I know He has a great purpose for me. I've been avoiding, or is it more like escaping, His gentle call for me. I would like to avoid hitting rock bottom before doing something about my life. I want to be the person who realizes the necessity of change before the consequences become too intense at the very bottom of the pit.

What's the first step, then? To be honest, I'm not sure but I do know that the first step will be different from what I've been doing lately. That first step could simply be this moment, blogging about my epiphanies and perspectives!